& the waiting is the hardest

Are you still waiting?
Am i?
Shall wait for you then.
I'll be waiting, I'm waiting, I'm still waiting, I'll keep on waiting.

OH WELL BLEARGHS.
HAHA! :D

It's the BIG As, finally.

Is this gonna be over soon?

Anyway, first paper on Monday.
Ahh at last the big As is here.
Not sure of how will it be and how will we fare.
But whatever it is, just do our best la and then hope & pray.
Insya'Allah boleh punye.
Good luck to all my H2 Mother Tongue friends whose paper starts this Monday too.
We shall all do well kay, at least for this first paper. :D

Till Death Do Us Part - A Change of Pace

Yesterday evening, as i was taking a nap, my mum received a call from Malaysia. It was my aunt calling to tell that my eldest aunt (mak long) is no longer with us in this world anymore. She had passed away in her sleep that very evening. I was quite shocked with the bad news and was pretty disheartened about not getting to see her for the next raya anymore, since my family didn't get the chance to go to Malaysia this year :( So anyway, we all prayed for her and all that. Semoga Allah cucuri rahmatNya ke atas mak long.

The freaky part was that i was asleep when this took place.
We will not know when's our turn, so just be prepared for what's to come i guess.
He might call anyone of us anytime, anywhere.
So do always remember Him and seek for His forgiveness and stuffs.
Don't forget to pray 5 times a day. I'm just reminding myself, sorry.

Before it's too late,
I just wanna say that I miss you
and that I'll love you, always and forever. <3

The Worst of Me - Saosin

I'm always late with my words
(I tried so hard, I tried so hard)
Should have told you, but I never really cared
(You always misled me)
I'm always late with my words
(I tried so hard, I tried so hard)
Should have told you, but I never really cared
(You always misled me)

You always got the worst of me...

The end of JC life

at last, finally the day that ive been waiting for had come.
haha. yes, graduation it is.
what a way to end this 2 'wasted' years in college.
there wasnt anything wow about today, just that we're all officially out of the school!?
(except that we still have to take the examinations in SR school hall-.-)
other than that, congratulations to all my classmates and friends who've made it this far.
together we'll achieve something at the end of the A levels.
Insya'Allah, Amin(:

ps:using the comp at masjid al-mawwadah, thanks to hanif:D

Autumn - Haste The Day

Yesterday, me and my classmates went to Iluma after econs extra class.
there was nothing much there, although it's quite huge and the interior design/concept's nice.
but really, such a waste of space and stuffs.
like so empty ah.
boring.
haha.

so crossed over to Bugis Junction then, to catch (500) days of summer.
oh gosh, I'm so touched by the show.
like its kinda emo, indie type of love story.
like how happy one can be in a moment, and then depressed in the other.
its quite saddening to know that the one that you really loved didnt end up with you.
but there was a twist in the end of the 500 days.
so i guess there's still light in every friendship and relationship with the people around us.
like it could go either way, whether things will go our way or the opposing.
either way, just don't give up in life yet cause remember that there is still HOPE.
just don't expect too much or so highly of ourselves as it might not come out the way we want it to be.
haha nvm..

hmm & oh oh, I'm enlisted into the Army (SAF).
Need to report to TEKONG BMTC SCHOOL 1 on 4Th March 2010 at 8.45 am.
anyone interested to send me off? lol:D
There's 8 weeks of Physical Training Phase(PTP) followed by 9 weeks of Basic Military Training(BMT).
hope it's gonna be a blast, my army life.
looking forward to it though it might be tough and challenging.
but what matters most is the once-in-a-lifetime experience that we are going to get from it.
Insya'Allah everything will go fine. Amin(:

Remembering Sunday - All Time Low

the past few days had been a bliss.
had geog pre-As last friday.
the paper was tough enough to kill us.
so didn't feel like staying for the post-mortem which was after prayers at 2.30.
went to the sengkang mosque for friday prayers with my beloved "bro" hanif.
met few of his youth-wing friends.
they're quite friendly actually.
& that guy whom i always saw kt masjid was frm monfort sec or sthg.
haha and i decided to just go for the post-mortem and there was a farewell tea at the end of the session.
aww how nice of the teachers(:

anyways, had BBQ at paris park with the TK ppl as well as friends of Hazim(izhaq's friend whose also the member of the band called T.H.E.O.R.B)
came quite early as compared to the rest after i singgah-ed abg aidil's hse for awhile at 4+.
izhaq, ajim, hanafi and shafie were there first.
didn't knw izhaq could drive alrdy and i heard he bought his own car alrdy, a chevrolet or sthg.
so yea the earlybirds had eaten alot of food before the rest came and catch up with us like after 7?
janji ptg, dtg dah malam.
haha

anw, had fun strumming the guitars with ajim's friends who were all indeed very pro.
they could play blues and semi-metal stuffs all day! haha
so yea learnt how to play songs like slow dancing in a burnin room by john mayer, remembering sunday by all time low and im yours by jason mraz.
cooked some satay ayam and satay daging as well as roasted some chicken wings as well as prawns.
really enjoyed being at the bbq pit there though it was freaking hot and steamy. haha

ajim's friends were syam and malcom. malcom's sucha cool chinese speaking malay guy whom i think behaves abit like charles or sthg?
haha miss that guy.
so yea nadia, khalis, jannah, siti, amalina, haikal, liyana, ammar and rahman(ammar's friend) joined us after dark.
bla.bla.bla.
all in all, had an enjoyable day there and really thanks guys for inviting me there even though i've disappoint you guys quite a number of times when it comes to chalets, bbq and stuffs.
one word; it was A-W-E-S-O-M-E.

moving on, went off from paris park at ard 10.30 pm.
it was quite late then and i had to rush back to sengkang to celebrate my cousin, abg aidil's birthday at his very open house.
reached there like at 11pm and had a slice of his bday cake.
then went inside and watched man utd beat bolton 2-1 while arsenal won 3-1 and liverpool lost 0-1 to sunderland.
meanwhile my parents had gone home first (a block away frm abg aidil's hse) as they were expecting visitors shortly.
me and my bro went back at abt 12 and aunty zarina had already reached my house as the last minute visitor for deeparaya.
they stayed till abt 1am while i fell asleep by then.

so yesterday, went to mamu razak's house at tamp ave 5 and faiz had to book in to his home team academy that very evening.
took bus to bedok next, and had some walk down memory lane.
it was nice to see my old hometown still being so lively and alive, especially outside the ntuc there.
remind me of the good old days when i was younger back then.
prayed maghrib and ishak at masjid ansar before moving on to chai chee to visit my late grandmother's sister or sthg.
went back at ard 10pm and took 87 straight.
what a fun yet tiring weekend i had.

looking forward for tml's class "outing" to catch a movie or sthg.
gtg and have a hair cut now.
till we meet again, goodbye and takecare!:D

Chances

We've only got one chance in life
So take it or leave it.
Use it or throw it.
Make it or break it.
(:

Almost Here - Delta Goodrem feat. Brian McFadden

hopes?
expectations?
can things just get worse?
i meant, come on where's the light for a brighter, better future?
i can see myself anywhere near you, or even i don't see myself anywhere?
i don't know where my life's leading me too?
like what am i gonna do after the As?
what if As was a bad idea after all?
all these questions running through my mind all day long, each and everyday?
when will all this uncertainty and sufferings end?
will i ever get to live happily, at least for once?
been thinking a lot this past few days..
couldn't sleep well. couldn't eat well.
pre-As taking it's toll on me.
ain't studying enough. nothing indeed?
where to next?
when and how am i to begin and pick myself back up after the greatest fall of all time?
will you ever be mine?
can i be yours?
will i ever meet that one person i need and love?
do you love me?
will you ever love me?
can i ever love you?
will i stand a chance in your life?
please i need help.
badly.
in all of this.
please, somebody save me?
from being trapped in a cycle of doubts and negativeness..
i don't know who or what or why or where or how am i anymore.
oh Allah, give me the strength to carry on.
& friends, do support if you care.

Amin.

All Again For You - We The Kings

You came knocking on the door while i was away. should have let you in. shouldn't have let you go so easily. why did i even let go of you in the first place. but now, I'll open it once again for you. once bitten, twice shy? my heart is yours, to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewellery, whichever you prefer. so will you take my hands and come with me someday, somehow? I'll never be able to say I love you. stay bright little fireflies. make light before my eyes. I'll never let you go. it's all up to you now. will you be there for me, stand by me, each and everyday? i can't make it on my own. i just wanna make everyone happy(: so i promise that I'll be happy for you too. could you help me get around in this life? & I'll promise to keep in touch with you at least once a day through whatever means, even if it's just to say goodnight. we will make it through. i guess that you make me happy. you really do. if only in reality, we could be happy together, then wouldn't it be nice:D

Ithink,iloveyou,ineedyou,ido? - xoxo!<3

Another Perfect Day - American Hi-Fi

Yesterday, went down to Bedok to hang out at Syariff's place after zohor.
Did some catching up and stuffs while enjoying the kuih raya at his house.
No one was home, so yea it feels like I've got the whole house to myself like that, with him ard of course.
Haha.
But yea since there's no one in, i didn't get any green packet.
Boo, oh well nvmm.

So yea after using his lappy and all, we were supposed to meet hanafi, who lives just a block away from 508, to go play pool together.
But sadly, hanafi couldn't make it in the end. So it was only the two of us.
Went off to parkway there to get something to eat first before playing pool.
Took 196 from bedok interchg and past by masjid kg siglap.
It's quite saddening to see the burnt down prayer hall of the mosque.

Anyways so yea ate at macs and then went up to the 5Th level of the building to the pool spot.
We thought it would be crowded at first since it's in the evening already.
Somehow the place was quite empty.
Taught syariff how to play and to be honest, he was quite good for a first timer.
I had deproved somehow due to the fact that I've not touch the cue stick for several months already.
Haa so played for an hour or so before moving off to pray asar at masjid wak tanjong.
Saw Alex(vjc) and Luqman(sajc) at the bustop there before we boarded 135.
Past by our old school, TK!
How we miss the place, all those sweet and bitter memories.

Prayed asar n maghrib skali then walked to grandlink square for a round of lan gaming plak.
Played till ard 8 before we had to part ways and went home.
It was an enjoyable and fun hang out date with Ahmed Syariff though.
Hopefully we could do it more often even though i know, you know we're all busy and stuffs.

Haha that's all for yesterday i guess:D

My Heart - Paramore

my heart, it beats, it beats for only you.
my heart, is yours.
my heart, is your heart. <3