sharkzenator.tumblr.com

& here's my tumblr link if you guys bother to check it out.
Anw, am still going to use this blogger i think, just that tumblr's more for the interesting stuffs i guess?
Like links quotes, photos, videos, audios, randomness, etc.
Blogger's more for personal everyday life story.
Haha! :D

Three Cheers For Five Years - Mayday Parade

1, 2, 3, 4 - Plain White T's
You make it easy, as easy as 1, 2 - 1, 2, 3, 4;
There's only one thing, to do, three words, f0r you - I love you.
There's only one way, to say, those three words and that's what I'll do - I love you.

Oh anyways, here's my exam schedule for next week and the week after next:

09 NOV - H2 GEOGRAPHY PAPER 1 - 14:00-17:00
10 NOV - H2 MALAY LANGUAGE AND LITERATURE PAPER 2 - 08:00-11:00
10 NOV - H1 MATHEMATICS - 14:00-17:00
11 NOV - H1 GENERAL PAPER 1 - 08:00-09:30
11 NOV - H1 GENERAL PAPER 2 - 10:15-11:45
18 NOV - H2 ECONOMICS PAPER 2 - 14:00-16:15
19 NOV - H2 GEOGRAPHY PAPER 2 - 08:00-11:00
20 NOV - H2 ECONOMICS PAPER 1 - 14:30-16:45

AND THAT'S ALL FOR A LEVELS PEOPLE! :D
Gonna celebrate like crazy after that. Post A-Levels enjoyment plans coming right up.
Anyone up for grabs? Haha.

&& I'll be moving to tumblr or something soon. So stay tuned guys. (:

& the waiting is the hardest

Are you still waiting?
Am i?
Shall wait for you then.
I'll be waiting, I'm waiting, I'm still waiting, I'll keep on waiting.

OH WELL BLEARGHS.
HAHA! :D

It's the BIG As, finally.

Is this gonna be over soon?

Anyway, first paper on Monday.
Ahh at last the big As is here.
Not sure of how will it be and how will we fare.
But whatever it is, just do our best la and then hope & pray.
Insya'Allah boleh punye.
Good luck to all my H2 Mother Tongue friends whose paper starts this Monday too.
We shall all do well kay, at least for this first paper. :D

Till Death Do Us Part - A Change of Pace

Yesterday evening, as i was taking a nap, my mum received a call from Malaysia. It was my aunt calling to tell that my eldest aunt (mak long) is no longer with us in this world anymore. She had passed away in her sleep that very evening. I was quite shocked with the bad news and was pretty disheartened about not getting to see her for the next raya anymore, since my family didn't get the chance to go to Malaysia this year :( So anyway, we all prayed for her and all that. Semoga Allah cucuri rahmatNya ke atas mak long.

The freaky part was that i was asleep when this took place.
We will not know when's our turn, so just be prepared for what's to come i guess.
He might call anyone of us anytime, anywhere.
So do always remember Him and seek for His forgiveness and stuffs.
Don't forget to pray 5 times a day. I'm just reminding myself, sorry.

Before it's too late,
I just wanna say that I miss you
and that I'll love you, always and forever. <3

The Worst of Me - Saosin

I'm always late with my words
(I tried so hard, I tried so hard)
Should have told you, but I never really cared
(You always misled me)
I'm always late with my words
(I tried so hard, I tried so hard)
Should have told you, but I never really cared
(You always misled me)

You always got the worst of me...

The end of JC life

at last, finally the day that ive been waiting for had come.
haha. yes, graduation it is.
what a way to end this 2 'wasted' years in college.
there wasnt anything wow about today, just that we're all officially out of the school!?
(except that we still have to take the examinations in SR school hall-.-)
other than that, congratulations to all my classmates and friends who've made it this far.
together we'll achieve something at the end of the A levels.
Insya'Allah, Amin(:

ps:using the comp at masjid al-mawwadah, thanks to hanif:D

Autumn - Haste The Day

Yesterday, me and my classmates went to Iluma after econs extra class.
there was nothing much there, although it's quite huge and the interior design/concept's nice.
but really, such a waste of space and stuffs.
like so empty ah.
boring.
haha.

so crossed over to Bugis Junction then, to catch (500) days of summer.
oh gosh, I'm so touched by the show.
like its kinda emo, indie type of love story.
like how happy one can be in a moment, and then depressed in the other.
its quite saddening to know that the one that you really loved didnt end up with you.
but there was a twist in the end of the 500 days.
so i guess there's still light in every friendship and relationship with the people around us.
like it could go either way, whether things will go our way or the opposing.
either way, just don't give up in life yet cause remember that there is still HOPE.
just don't expect too much or so highly of ourselves as it might not come out the way we want it to be.
haha nvm..

hmm & oh oh, I'm enlisted into the Army (SAF).
Need to report to TEKONG BMTC SCHOOL 1 on 4Th March 2010 at 8.45 am.
anyone interested to send me off? lol:D
There's 8 weeks of Physical Training Phase(PTP) followed by 9 weeks of Basic Military Training(BMT).
hope it's gonna be a blast, my army life.
looking forward to it though it might be tough and challenging.
but what matters most is the once-in-a-lifetime experience that we are going to get from it.
Insya'Allah everything will go fine. Amin(:

Remembering Sunday - All Time Low

the past few days had been a bliss.
had geog pre-As last friday.
the paper was tough enough to kill us.
so didn't feel like staying for the post-mortem which was after prayers at 2.30.
went to the sengkang mosque for friday prayers with my beloved "bro" hanif.
met few of his youth-wing friends.
they're quite friendly actually.
& that guy whom i always saw kt masjid was frm monfort sec or sthg.
haha and i decided to just go for the post-mortem and there was a farewell tea at the end of the session.
aww how nice of the teachers(:

anyways, had BBQ at paris park with the TK ppl as well as friends of Hazim(izhaq's friend whose also the member of the band called T.H.E.O.R.B)
came quite early as compared to the rest after i singgah-ed abg aidil's hse for awhile at 4+.
izhaq, ajim, hanafi and shafie were there first.
didn't knw izhaq could drive alrdy and i heard he bought his own car alrdy, a chevrolet or sthg.
so yea the earlybirds had eaten alot of food before the rest came and catch up with us like after 7?
janji ptg, dtg dah malam.
haha

anw, had fun strumming the guitars with ajim's friends who were all indeed very pro.
they could play blues and semi-metal stuffs all day! haha
so yea learnt how to play songs like slow dancing in a burnin room by john mayer, remembering sunday by all time low and im yours by jason mraz.
cooked some satay ayam and satay daging as well as roasted some chicken wings as well as prawns.
really enjoyed being at the bbq pit there though it was freaking hot and steamy. haha

ajim's friends were syam and malcom. malcom's sucha cool chinese speaking malay guy whom i think behaves abit like charles or sthg?
haha miss that guy.
so yea nadia, khalis, jannah, siti, amalina, haikal, liyana, ammar and rahman(ammar's friend) joined us after dark.
bla.bla.bla.
all in all, had an enjoyable day there and really thanks guys for inviting me there even though i've disappoint you guys quite a number of times when it comes to chalets, bbq and stuffs.
one word; it was A-W-E-S-O-M-E.

moving on, went off from paris park at ard 10.30 pm.
it was quite late then and i had to rush back to sengkang to celebrate my cousin, abg aidil's birthday at his very open house.
reached there like at 11pm and had a slice of his bday cake.
then went inside and watched man utd beat bolton 2-1 while arsenal won 3-1 and liverpool lost 0-1 to sunderland.
meanwhile my parents had gone home first (a block away frm abg aidil's hse) as they were expecting visitors shortly.
me and my bro went back at abt 12 and aunty zarina had already reached my house as the last minute visitor for deeparaya.
they stayed till abt 1am while i fell asleep by then.

so yesterday, went to mamu razak's house at tamp ave 5 and faiz had to book in to his home team academy that very evening.
took bus to bedok next, and had some walk down memory lane.
it was nice to see my old hometown still being so lively and alive, especially outside the ntuc there.
remind me of the good old days when i was younger back then.
prayed maghrib and ishak at masjid ansar before moving on to chai chee to visit my late grandmother's sister or sthg.
went back at ard 10pm and took 87 straight.
what a fun yet tiring weekend i had.

looking forward for tml's class "outing" to catch a movie or sthg.
gtg and have a hair cut now.
till we meet again, goodbye and takecare!:D

Chances

We've only got one chance in life
So take it or leave it.
Use it or throw it.
Make it or break it.
(:

Almost Here - Delta Goodrem feat. Brian McFadden

hopes?
expectations?
can things just get worse?
i meant, come on where's the light for a brighter, better future?
i can see myself anywhere near you, or even i don't see myself anywhere?
i don't know where my life's leading me too?
like what am i gonna do after the As?
what if As was a bad idea after all?
all these questions running through my mind all day long, each and everyday?
when will all this uncertainty and sufferings end?
will i ever get to live happily, at least for once?
been thinking a lot this past few days..
couldn't sleep well. couldn't eat well.
pre-As taking it's toll on me.
ain't studying enough. nothing indeed?
where to next?
when and how am i to begin and pick myself back up after the greatest fall of all time?
will you ever be mine?
can i be yours?
will i ever meet that one person i need and love?
do you love me?
will you ever love me?
can i ever love you?
will i stand a chance in your life?
please i need help.
badly.
in all of this.
please, somebody save me?
from being trapped in a cycle of doubts and negativeness..
i don't know who or what or why or where or how am i anymore.
oh Allah, give me the strength to carry on.
& friends, do support if you care.

Amin.

All Again For You - We The Kings

You came knocking on the door while i was away. should have let you in. shouldn't have let you go so easily. why did i even let go of you in the first place. but now, I'll open it once again for you. once bitten, twice shy? my heart is yours, to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewellery, whichever you prefer. so will you take my hands and come with me someday, somehow? I'll never be able to say I love you. stay bright little fireflies. make light before my eyes. I'll never let you go. it's all up to you now. will you be there for me, stand by me, each and everyday? i can't make it on my own. i just wanna make everyone happy(: so i promise that I'll be happy for you too. could you help me get around in this life? & I'll promise to keep in touch with you at least once a day through whatever means, even if it's just to say goodnight. we will make it through. i guess that you make me happy. you really do. if only in reality, we could be happy together, then wouldn't it be nice:D

Ithink,iloveyou,ineedyou,ido? - xoxo!<3

Another Perfect Day - American Hi-Fi

Yesterday, went down to Bedok to hang out at Syariff's place after zohor.
Did some catching up and stuffs while enjoying the kuih raya at his house.
No one was home, so yea it feels like I've got the whole house to myself like that, with him ard of course.
Haha.
But yea since there's no one in, i didn't get any green packet.
Boo, oh well nvmm.

So yea after using his lappy and all, we were supposed to meet hanafi, who lives just a block away from 508, to go play pool together.
But sadly, hanafi couldn't make it in the end. So it was only the two of us.
Went off to parkway there to get something to eat first before playing pool.
Took 196 from bedok interchg and past by masjid kg siglap.
It's quite saddening to see the burnt down prayer hall of the mosque.

Anyways so yea ate at macs and then went up to the 5Th level of the building to the pool spot.
We thought it would be crowded at first since it's in the evening already.
Somehow the place was quite empty.
Taught syariff how to play and to be honest, he was quite good for a first timer.
I had deproved somehow due to the fact that I've not touch the cue stick for several months already.
Haa so played for an hour or so before moving off to pray asar at masjid wak tanjong.
Saw Alex(vjc) and Luqman(sajc) at the bustop there before we boarded 135.
Past by our old school, TK!
How we miss the place, all those sweet and bitter memories.

Prayed asar n maghrib skali then walked to grandlink square for a round of lan gaming plak.
Played till ard 8 before we had to part ways and went home.
It was an enjoyable and fun hang out date with Ahmed Syariff though.
Hopefully we could do it more often even though i know, you know we're all busy and stuffs.

Haha that's all for yesterday i guess:D

My Heart - Paramore

my heart, it beats, it beats for only you.
my heart, is yours.
my heart, is your heart. <3

Slow things down or speed them up.

Slow down.. this night's a perfect shade of
Dark blue (dark blue)

This Photograph Is Proof

yesterday was great but today was bad.
screw econs, screw exams, screw schools and our education system maybe?
they are ever disappointing and demoralizes you too..

Stop everything, start it all over
Remember more than you'd like to forget
Drop everything, start it all over
Remember more than you'd like to forget
Would you like to forget?
I know you know...

The right to write me off

Can we make this last forever
With every word you're growing distant
And I feel as though I have to let you go...
Can we make this time together
Seem as though we never started
And it's hard to be the only one to know...

ps:not now please, but not never as well? nvm

Change your mind

Hey, Hey
Did you ever think
There might be another way
To just feel better,
Just feel better about today...

If you want to be somebody else,
If you're tired of fighting battles with yourself
If you want to be somebody else
Change your mind...

M18 here we come..

Hey, hey!
Haha yesterday was a blast..
Thanks to all my friends and family for taking the trouble to celebrate my birthday in a good old fashion way, which is to blanja!
Hahah you guys really made my day:D
Sadly cant meet up with someone, apart from being 'there' for me.. HAHA(:

So yea went out at around 1.3o after zohor to have lunch with the whole family.
It was the first time after so long that we've finally got the time to sit down together and eat lunch as a family.
Very happy(: my dad treated us at selera pelangi restaurant or something, at Tanjong Katong Complex, if you all haven't heard of it before.

Then soon after singgah-ed the Singapore post center at paya lebar before dad had to meet up with his American friend, named Marcus who have just converted to Islam a few years back thanks to his guidance, i think?
Hahs so yea my bro followed them while my mum went home and i headed straight to tampines to meet my fellow srjc classmates:D
HAHA then saw Amira Begum at the entrance of Tampines One..
Was so shocked ah to see her..
Haha but her sisters basket ahh, nvmm. LOL

So yea after meeting tim, vanan and hanif, we walked around for awhile and went into a few nice2 new shops before leaving that new shoping center.
Didn't manage to explore it fully though there's nothing so grand about it?

Then we decided to go to the macs opposite kfc that one.
I wanted to buy ice cream, so i did get an oreo mcflurry.
Lo and behold, i didn't knew that my friends would treat me to a scrumptious dessert of 3 deliciously chocolate junkies from mc cafe.
I never saw that coming, really, since you guys didn't even mention anything about wanting to give me anything or something. haha
HAHA was shocked once again ahh that I've got to finish all that or else we're not allowed to leave.
(ps: sry ahh muker macm cine jepon slenge mane tah.. hahah)

Was quite glad ah they bought me all that for free at first but end up not finishing the chocolate muffin after gobbling up on the oreo cheescake and the darn good brownie.
Hahas thanks ahh korg ehh! How dare you all stuff me with all the junkies, and then force me to finish them up when I'm already fully full. LOL

Nah just kidding but really i meant thank you very much for that sweet treat and really sorry hanif, i just can't finish it up since had a heavy lunch before that mah.
Luckily you finish it up then so we can all make a move and call it a day.
Oh and i saw khalis too, he was siting a table next to mine?
Was really tiring but it's a very happy day both for me and everyone else who cared(:
Haha.

BUT ONE WHOLE DAY WASTED SPENDING TIME OUTSIDE, AND NO STUDYING DONE.
BAGOS eh next week mid years lei!
Went home also never do anything, just use the comp.
And right now I'm still stuck at the comp.
Got study break also for what eh, take a break from studying la! LOL-.-
Gosh somebody save me and help me to try to start revising at least?
Haaa, byee..

Legally Eighteen(:

Ohh! Thank you all for those whom wished me a Happy 18th Birthday weeks before, yesterday, just now, today, currently and maybe later?
Hahs

Hmm i would like to take this opportunity to name a few of those who mattered the most that could and would still remember this very special date.

So here's the list (in random order):
Syafiah, Mia, Syafiq Zohry, Izhaq, Fana, Eeqa, Dyla, Amira SR, Haris Jo, Amira TK, Rizwan TK, Prasaanth, Azie, Hanif, Izzatul Fia.

Sorry guys if i forgot to include your name in the list or totally missed you guys out.. Ive got bad memory. XD

Thanks once again for the lovely well wishes my beloved friends:D

Ohh and there's just so many things to come in the future i guess?
Haha(:

ouch and that hurts..
putting on the braces isn't painful at all,
but wearing it through just one day feels like forever..
i meant the pain comes when you try to eat or bite or chew on stuffs that's opposite of soft..
also, it feels rather uncomfortable, as in the way you have to open and close your mouth at times just to adjust the position to make it feel nicer..
ahh leceh ahh pakai braces..
but oh wells hafta straighten up my poor teeth or else it'll stay ugly..
haa..
niways next week's exam and

...and if my lungs still let me breathe, will you be there for me?

Its not hard to fall

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
SO COME ON COURAGE, TEACH ME TO BE SHY (when I'm already shy enough? good eh..)

cabaran kehidupan hari ini

Gahhh life's so difficult nowadays in this modern life..
There's so many challenges ahead of us everyday..
The obstacles we face and overcome is getting too much of a burden for us to carry..
& what we have seen so far is nothing much compared to the others out there which we wouldn't ever know..
Hate the whole "brave new world" society..
Maybe I'm too afraid to face the real word out there..
& maybe I've not been living in the reality for quite a some time now.
and to add on to it,
too much unachievable dreams and living in the virtual world does not really help..
Oh wells, never mind.
Grr!

PS: i need that special someone to share my 'life' with please, even though maybe I'm a no-lifer and/or don't have a life-.-

just passing by to tell you guys that everything's alright in here..

hey peeps,
its been a month since my comp & internet went bonkers..
& life's been much of a roller coaster ride..
been missing alot of things that come to live online..
results been shitty..
parents being sucky..
oh well. nvm.
so yea now i'm typing this through my cousin's laptop..
gtg though..
see you ppl ard any sooner if possible(:
so long, goodbye!

so please, please...

I'll never get what i want in life..
I wont ever be able to realize and achieve my dreams..
I'm never gonna be good enough for anyone or even anything..
I just have to accept and face this harsh

when boredom strikes, it kills..

At Least I'm Known for Something - New Found Glory

I'm in and out of conversation
It's hard to keep my attention locked down
So don't take offence to anything i say
I tried so hard to keep you coming back my way
But you don't know the half and the one to blame for it

Cause I'm best known for failure
Best known for giving up
There's nothing that I can say that can matter that can matter enough
Cause I'm best known for failure (hey)
Best known for giving up (hey)
There's nothing that I can say that can matter that can matter enough

I've figured out my situation
I am an endless source of useless information
Give me bad news 'cause it's already been expected
I let my front down
And i know i will regret it
But you don't know the half and the one to blame for it

Cause I'm best known for failure
Best known for giving up
There's nothing that I can say that can matter that can matter enough
Cause I'm best known for failure (hey)
Best known for giving up (hey)
There's nothing that I can say that can matter that can matter enough

Lets get down to business now
I'm saving myself the trouble in the end
So lets get down to business now
I'm saving myself the trouble in the end
(Saving myself the trouble)
But you don't know the half and the one to blame for it

(hey) Cause I'm best known for failure (hey)
Best known for giving up (hey)
There's nothing that I can say that can matter

I'm the one to blame for this
Yes I'm the one to blame

Best known for failure
Best known for giving up
There's nothing I can say that can matter
That can matter enough


Anyways, this is what the school namely ms Christina tan emailed to all of us JC2s..
owh so nice right? how sweet of them to motivate us fr common test even though they make it sound as if we're taking A levels already.. lol

You Do It... Always!
Dear JC2s,

"I know the task's uphill...
But don't give up!
Give it your best shot...
And I know...
You'll get to the top...
...as always!"

There're only 9 days left to Common Test. Remember...A little more effort, a little more persistence, whatever seemed fruitless will soon turn to glorious success. Press on! You can do it! :)
Mrs Christina Tan

She's the best and nicest econs teacher around la i guess..
Oh n did i 4gt to mention that she's our year head too?
So motivational even tho we might not feel it in school..
HAHA goodnight!

yea, right...

apa saja...
niways, See things from another perspective today and you'll see another side of yourself.

exposure

omg I'm starting to "like" school nowadays..
this is due to the various disciplinary matters i have been involved in such as the late coming, Early Bird Programme, long hair and beach cleaning VCW on the 14Th of march.
and also because there's at least sthg to look forward to,
which is to do well in As n go on into the uni, most preferably NUS FASS/SDE..
in order to do so, we must motivate and help each other out especially my classmates and other schoolmates such as hanif rafiqah haikal prasaanth and so on..
& cannot just study on ur own although we have to depend on ourselves..
but yea lets just share the knowledge with whoever so that it will not only benefit yourself, but also the others..
let's work towards this common goal: NUS

hmm so yea went to the NUS FASS just now to listen to the Geog dept. uni n career talk.
i was with hanif all the way as usual since haikal's now so bonded with his classmates..
haha!
it was somewhat interesting with the introduction of urban land planning in the URA. but the best part is that i got to see a few of my old friends and gladly they still recognize me despite of my change in hairstyle and the wearing of specs.
Hmm sat right behind hanee and nadhirah both of which whom are from my pri sch n they're now both in TJC..
went out of the LT11 n tegured muslihah and diyana bt saw maria too in the LT..
they were my MI PAE classmates and now all 3 of them is in IJC.
then next up saw one TKsian 4B 07 from AJC, as well as catch up awhile with cheryl lim from TK 4H07 who's in AJC too..
ahah.. what a small world after all.

oh n wow its just so fun that at least there are people around u who have the same interest in geography..
so, if i got the chance to enter uni and major in geog, i would have already known some of the people..
i meant yea..
must be more friendly, peramah and just tegur or else ppl will think that you're sombong or action and have forgoten them, according to amira..
haha. bt that helps alot.. thx!
have to smile always too(:

so yea anything in life right now; just be grateful of what we already have and be thankfully of our current situation now matter how sucky it is.
bersyukur dan bertawakal lah kamu kepada Illahi.

Oh & one last important thing i learnt from today is that we have to break the stereotyping of people and banish those negative views from others..
just do what we like/want without the need to be mindful of what others think since different ppl have their own interests and ability whats..

the bus ride back to SRJC was a pleasant one i guess, much more better than the going-there part..
the haikal jonas class was so kecoh as we saw rainbows along the way.
it was really so beautiful and magnificent though.
it even covers the entire sky i think?
haha nvm=D

hate napha tests..
it sucked just now..
oh well just like the rest of the school..
everythg sux..
bye ah.

another lame post-.-

school on Wednesdays are the most dreading tho its the most slackest day according to the time table..
tml's another long day with last period Malay ending at 6pm.
bt can't wait fr tml's NUS talk actually..
design & environment design & environment pls.
looking forward to it coz I'm hoping to enter it someday. lol.

cannot depend so much on others..
must be independent and self motivated..
must depend more on your own self.
everythings depends on you yourself mah?
there have to be independent learning..
& I've got to help myself first before others will want to help..
no one can change you except yourself.
so yea make the changes like i said before to adapt & suit the environment around you.

...oh shit what am i doing spending my time on the comp, internet n msn?
why am i even wasting my time just to write all this down.
so tk perlu ah..
cannot get distracted..
come on gotta stay focus!
back to study table?
ciao.

global shift

OH OH & I THINK IM MOVING HOUSE AGAIN! -.-
TO WOODLANDS NOW.
I THINK IT'S GETTING FURTHER AND FURTHER AWAY FROM EVERYONE ESPECIALLY MY OLD FRIENDS. =(
HAIZ.
MAYBE ONE DAY WHO KNOWS I'LL BE MOVING OUT OF THE COUNTRY AND EVENTUALLY TO THE DIFFERENT "WORLD"
WALLAHUALAM.

What did you learn today? I learnt SOMEthing.

What i learnt in school for the past 11-14 years of education?
I learnt alot.
Apparently, I'm loving school more than ever for the very first time.
I finally realized that the teachers are there for you to help and guide you through your major examinations.
Somehow i have a changed perception over a few teachers which i think is good la since i don't see them as my "enemy" anymore.
If you dunno means you really dunno la then must seek for clarifications to make your understanding clear, sharp and precise.
You must show them that you're interested in wanting to know more, gaining more knowledge and seek more learning.
Gotta absorb as many as possible in school so that we can have more leisure time after school hours.

Mustn't be egoistic or complacent tho if you think you are already studying very hard and trying so hard.
Coz all you gotta do is to make a change
A Change to your self, to your own self.
A Change to your friends.
A Change to the people around you or your surrounding environment.
We gotta change and move on since its the only constant right now.
Shall be self motivated from now on to keep myself awake for the A lvls.
Thanks for opening up my eyes and mind as well as waking me up from a deep sleep throughout my entire schooling years..
HAHA!
Must change in terms of attitude, mentality as well as having optimistic views; not just becoming more or staying positive, cheerful, happy, friendly, up, hyper, enthu, etc.

Oh and also, uve gotta prioritize what you wanna do in life most next, which one is more or most important to you, who matters the most or more, and gotta keep striving no matter what people think or say about you.
Have to have that own believe that you're capable of doing something you're good at or you have potential in it.
If others can do it, why can't i right?
It's called the ability to succeed. (1 of the values TKSS has taught me)
You know yourself best.
So you should also know what's good and what's not as well as what's best for you.
What goes around comes around.
Rmb tht life is short and should be spent wisely in every useful manner.

hidup harus terus hidup

HAHA THIS IS ONLY A JOKE. DONT TAKE IT SERIOUSLY-.-
Gua dah tak heran ah dengan ini hidop.
Ape nak jadi jadilah.
Takde hal punya ah.
Don't feel troubled too easily la, shakur.
There's much more in and to life man.
So i should just chill la.
I'll just tell myself that i can do it and nothing's gonna stop me from doing and achieving my dreams or what i want in life.
Let it be if im a changed man now.
Cos everyone changes and everyone's really changing or have already changed right now.

Aku berserah kepada takdir Illahi untuk menentukan jalan hidupku kerana selama ini, ku telah pun bertungkus lumus dengan sedaya upayanya berusaha untuk mengubah kehidupanku yang serba tak sempurna ini. Namun jika Allah S.W.T. tidak mengizinkan, aku rela untuk hanya berdiam diri. Tiada apa yang dapat aku lakukan lagi selain untuk sentiasa mengingatiNya dan tunduk berdoa kepadaNya kerana kita hanyalah manusia biasa.

From now onwards, gua dah rilek ah..
Ape orang lain nak buat, buat lah.
Tak pasal ah.
Asalkan dorg bahagia. Aku takkan sama sekali rasa apa2.
Janji dorg tk kacau aku, aku tk kacau dorg.
Ok best.

&thx amira fr always keeping me alive and all cheered up..
i should always be thankful to God and be appreciative of the people around me though life can be sucky at times cos i kow that there are others out there who is living a more unfortunate life than me.
bersyukurlah kamu wahai insan budiman.
can't ask for any better buddy.
love ya, HAHA! =D

Selamats ahh...

all i need right now are great friends=D

Hey peeps out there..
Happy valentines/friendship day aites=D (thou i don't celebrate it)
Love is in the air, so spread it around! LOLs.
I would like to take this opportunity to thank all my dear friends and family who have always been there for me and helped me along in supporting me to go through this life.
I appreciate all you people's sacrifices, helpfulness, cheerfulness, or even friendliness..
I would like to also mention some names whom have always matter the most for me or have cheered me up n talk to me in a regular basis, be it on the phone, sms, msn or even real life.

So here you go, in random order:
My bros in arms; kal, zaq, han, mad, mar, shaf, shap, wan.
All my members from SRJC/2A08.
Others; Amira TK, Selynna TK, Fana Dunman-TPJC.

& to those whom I've not mentioned or forgot to say, don't feel bad... coz u guys are still and will always be my friend too.
All the best in life ppl, gd luck fr the future and gdbye fr nw.
Ciaoz!

The Bright Side of Suffering

took from the note being tagged in my facebook..

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.


IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
- as your voice fades - emery

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
- Romance Is A Slowdance - Atticus

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
- Drowning lessons - My Chemical Romance

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
- Track 1 - Unknown Album (ah?)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
- Jangan Tinggal Daku - Amuk .___.

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
- From The Heart - Hoobastank

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
- Langit Tak Mendengar - Peterpan

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
- A Praise Chorus - Jimmy Eat World (huh?)

WHAT IS 2+2?
- take it away - the used

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
- Bila Dah Jemu Kita Ditinggalkan - Screen (eww sry its jiwang)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
- Going Under - Evanescence

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
- Vanilla Sky - Bury Your Dead

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
- BLIND - LIFEHOUSE (ZOMFG, NO!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
- Away From The Sun - Three Doors Down

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
- Chippie - A Change Of Pace

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
- Radio- Alkaline Trio

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
- kiss me, i'm contagious - From First To Last (died frm a disease?)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
- Dance Dance - Fall Out Boy

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
- 7 minutes in heaven - Fall Out Boy

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
- Your Guardian Angel - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
- Life Is Wonderful - Jason Mraz (how contradicting)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
- Autumn - Haste the Day

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
- Cemetery Drive - My Chemical Romance

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
- Giving Up - Silverstein (this one agreeable, hahs)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
- Collision - As I Lay Dying (err?)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
- Dreams - The Cranberries (nightmares i sppose)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
- Whenever I Fall - Crowded House

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
- Still Searching - Senses Fail

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
- Mend The Wound Of A Plague - As Hope Dies

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
- The Bright Side of Suffering - Scary Kids Scaring Kids

if only its just so lovely..

Oh y are people always being unhappy with their life..
or like for me for instance, sometimes or rather most of the time i do feel sad/down/upset and don't feel happy in life too..
but shouldn't we be thankful to God that we're still breathing and living every minute, every second of our lives with some aim, purpose or direction in life?

maybe cos there's lack of love elsewhere..
people might have forgotten the real meaning of love in life..
like yeah, where is the love? - black eyed peas
maybe we don't even know whats the meaning of true love in terms of humanitarian and stuffs like that..
we often get too selfish and self-centered as we only care about our own selves in this fast-paced global world rather than improving the lives of the others..
this is because, we have to stay focus and competitive to fight for a place in this world once again.
so there's not much time to care and concern for others. this could lead to the behaviour of arrogance, complacency and ignorance.

Again, we all feel like we wanna love somebody..
but what if there's nobody to love us.
won't we feel like kena rejected or neglected for not being loved, even by our friends and family.
it's as tough as being ignored by people around us=(
to love and to be loved is such 2 different complicating stuffs..
haiz..
lol
ps: my posts are just full of crap stuffs and junkies to release some stress and tension in me..

Lover I Don't Have to Love - Bright Eyes

Local uni? =/

Eh which NUS talks to go to eh?
Faculty of Arts and Social Sciences or School of Design and Environment or Business School?
Hmm but in the first place its not even possible to compete among the rest of the JCs if we wanna enter NUS..
But oh well lets just give our best shot as its worth trying ryt? (the only reason why we're in a jc)

FASS confirm must be a back up one since all of us in the arts cohort are studying it and may only be qualified for that. Most prolly under the geography course first before last resort Malay studies?

As for SDE, i would to try out the architecture or even real estate course cos im quite interested with anything that has to do with buildings or houses..
HAHA more of passion but i don't have any ideas on these courses. also, I'm aware that i wouldn't be able to cope or even qualify into these school since i don't have any design and art background plus not like i can draw, in fact its atrocious?

Lastly would be BS?, coz its the next alternative everyone would also look out for which is to start or run their own business if its too difficult to find any job.
Almost anyone or everyone can take up business but thru econs experience, its quite difficult plus dry if just study business alone actually.

So yea there you go?
1.FASS 2.SDE 3.BS

?!

boleh jadi giler sial macm gini..
bleh mati dok!
ahhh
how to stay or even be positive when everything's around you seems or it is so negative..
ahhh stress tk tentu pasal.. i meant scared of dunno what..
just becoz of this whole school system thingy..
super buat kiterorg jadi tk btol ah..
psycho-ed=((
tml's gonna be another day of endless tortures, mentally if not physically.

jc2?

school's have always been complicated..
anyways, no comments abt the new j1s since dunno much abt any of them..
so ya.
its just so pressurizing, pressing & pushing hard on us every moment, leaving us getting hardknocks along the way..
bt wait, it just got tougher by the minute..
ahh stress, confused, uncertained..
wtv!
k die..

we are not the machines,
we are not machines,
i cant help but to feel that.

anamoly

I picture your face in the back of my eyes,
A fire in the attic, a proof of the prize,
Anna-molly, anna-molly, anna-molly,

Incubus - Anna Molly -

cash converters, a great way to save!

Went to tamp int with haikal ystd to get a new pair of jeans. Brown this time.
Then followed him to whitesands to get his knee-long black nike soccer socks.
Afterwhich lepak-ed with izhaq, hanafi, shafie and haikal at the usual place near izhaq's hse besides esso.
Hanafi and izhaq was frm NP open house and toa payoh to buy some racing game or sthg.
Bla3 then went to blk 486B and followed hanafi to collect his new bike bought frm sum pakcik or sthg..
It was all-black and middle sized bike. 40 bux only sia, quite cheap fr tht bike size.
Went back to the normal lepak place and we tried to ride on his new bike as well as did some catching up agn..
Went off at ard 11pm when they all had talks on getting motorbikes and cars alrdy.
Woah imagine if all of us have our own transportation, confirm dame fun and freedom is gained! :D

So yea influenced by hanafi getting a new bike, i went to toa payoh cash converter hoping to grab the suspension bike i eyed on fr so long.
Bt sadly it was alrdy gone when i reached.
Meaning someone had bought it earlier the day.
Haiz..
Bt i was determined to get a semi-acoustic guitar next at amk's cash converter..
And yup the 88bux one i wanted was still there..
So got it plus a new guit bag fr only 103 bux?
N again i saw this dame nice mountain bike outside of the shop.
So yea grabbed it as well at only 69 bux plus 10 bux fr new bike lock.
Was quite happy to finall get my hands on my new bicycle which was way nicer, better and bigger than my previous one.
Super good quality, not tht heavy and quite fast, thicker tyres i spposed.
The semi-acoustic guitar however was quite a cheapo brand one so yea didnt expect much.
Fr a cheap one, quite nice design/color bt yea havent try out yet since dad's at home.
So yea frm now on, the electric guitar is officially my bro's one with this semi-acoustic as mine and the old guitar tong as well as amp shared.
I havent disclose the bike matter to my bro tho.
So yea its still mine secretly until he finds out and ask me to mod my old bike.
BYE.

A world so cold...

Bought few new stuffs fr sch this hols.
Firstly i made myself a new specs.
Its a plastic frame specs..
Its kinda indie/retro design as mention by some bt oh wells i hope it look nice on me..
Its black on the outside with red on the inside of the plastic frame of the specs..
Kinda cheap at only 50bux compared to other shops which sell like ard 88,95 and even 100++ fr both frame and lens.
I think my degree had change.
So yea thinking of wearing it all the time or otherwise still.
Dont la see which one suits and which is more comfortable..

Next item on the shopping list was a designer backpack..
Sadly most of the bags i wanted didnt have any more stock or i just couldnt find them in Singapore..
So i have to settle fr just manhattan portage school backpack, the kinda small and plain one, since i have the discount for it frm my purchase of AVA cd album..
Still its quite ex.

& sadly many of my frens dont notice/realize/recognize or even knw abt this brand when i thot its kinda hot nowdays..
aha
MP siol frm NY summore-.-
Maybe my bag color ah nt tht nice.
I bought a grey one instead of maybe black or red or even brown.
Hmph nvm all thanks to out of stock.

Then yea spent the last few days or even weeks of holidays searching ard fr things to buy b4 sch reopen.
Like went to popular a few times to get my stationaries as well as notebooks/organizers and files sorted out.
Then like went to alter my school pants but only one ah..
Still kinda baggy still tho more slim-fit-.-
ahah.
Managed to buy few pairs of school socks and new jeans mainly grey, brown n black in color.
Was looking for a new sneaker too.
Either a grey/black converse one or any vans old school shoe type.
But nah ran out of budget and got exhausted after searching fr bags=(
Running shoes was also on my list but yerp too bad its out of question already since im broke liao frm all the spending on stuffs and food especially.
Luckily my old running shoes still can use i guess, only that its quite dirty and cant be whitened anymore..

Hmm whats next ah?
Oh ya!!
How about a new bike...
Hehs told my bro abt getting a bigger new mountain bike since the old one's kinda small alrdy fr us and it doesnt really work too..
Haiz..
Bt he told me to sell off the old one first b4 enquiring abt the price of a big mt bike.
AHha where gt ppl wanna buy our old bike?-.-
NVm..
Still yea if only i had my new bike, i would ride my bike to school almost everyday or maybe on the dressdown days which are mon,wed,fri..
Sucha great idea coz these days kinda slack at the end i think..
Like tues and thurs more hectic n hafta wear full uni.
So yerp with a new bike ard, i can continue my cycling plans to anywhere, everywhere, nowhere..
At least can have fun after school going elsewhere first to de-stress myself b4 going home.
And can rush to school using a bike.
Hmm miss cycling tho.

What else eh?
Oh jackets.
Yes those plain yet nice ones.
Those thin and light one so that can put inside the bag easily.
I dont like my own class jacket.
Firstly its so heavy and bulky and the quality of it sux too.
Not forgetting the design.
Lucky its in black in color.
Lol i want a jacket like syariff one, the one syaq bought fr him at australia.
Dame nice material and quality.
Syaq said can get at bugis strt fr cheap2 one.
So yea will try gt someday, grey preferably.

And lastly, oh ive still gt lots of housechores and homeworks do be done.
Ive got to restring my new electric guitar too since the B-string have came off while my bro is playing it.
I have to restring the old burok guitar tong too.
So that at least it sounds nicer or sthg.
Must get semi-acoustic guitar next to jam with my bro as well.
AHA.

Theres homework for every subj i think.
Econs - green tax drq n market failure essay q2
Geog - some essay and some sketching i sppose?
Malay - just read up and finish novels and the other components.
Gp - oh no! weekly newspaper articles which i dont have and the one azie gave to me, i left them at the school locker =S
Maths - finish up the tutorial oni
Oh great.. HAHA actually quite little hwk ah compared to sec sch or sthg.
Hehs nvm. Just lazy to do i guess..

Then for housechores, ive still got to clean up the room's fans.
Then i would like to clean up, clear & rearrange all my stuffs in the room suchas clothes, pants, bags, books etc.
Oh n needa do some filing up soon to update on the last few pieces of notes weve gotten after promos.

Awwrite! School's starting soon, in 3 days time?
Yea and on the first day of our school, the O lvl results would be released too.
So fast sia.
Cant wait fr the new j1s to enter the sch on the 2nd of feb.
Oh n today, srjc is having their school open house togethter with 3 other north zone jcs namely ajc, ijc, yjc.
I bet none would wanna go for our school-.- dumping grd summore..
Hope next monday we got to go home earlier since its only admin stuffs and theres no official lessons i reckon.
Bt hey we've started going back school this past few days for our make up supplementary tutorials which is bullshit.
Sibei sian ah!
ahaa
Had to come back fr 3 days(thank god nt 5)

Yea on monday, there was only two lessons, one of which was free period since the teacher didnt turn up fr econs tht day. There was only geog in the afternoon.
Ended school quite early, like 12.30? and followed aleem to hougang mall, vivo city, suntec and finally raflles city since he wanted to buy the singapore football jacket.
Kinda ex bt it was only 72.60 at raffles city nike shop.
Fatin tagged along as well.
Had lunch at suntec KFC..
kinda awkward la since it was only 3 ppl..
After tht went to play street soccer with the norm sr guys at the court near school.
Reached ard 4.30 n went home ard 6.30..
Eng mgu, e-jon, me, aleem, farez, ridzwan, khai anwar n juffri were there. The rest didnt come..

Then there wasnt any school on tuesday and i slept the whole day instead of going out with prasaanth and vanan to get their stuffs sucha as backpack, shoes, specs and ipod/hp.

Wednesday was hell.
The lessons were draggy and it dragged from 8 am up to 4.30 pm..
Dame boring and tiring especially gp n econs. Summore without aleems accompany in geog. Lucky gt hanif. haa.
H1 maths as well as gp was 2hrs each frm 8 to 12.30..
Then went off for lunch at kovan macs with hanif, merlvin? vanan and vel since tht bugger was vegetarian..
Had double chocolate frappe agn and tried their oreo cheesecake as well.
Woah double ex-ness..
Came back sch ard 2.10?..
Then cikgu just had to see me ryt.
Bla3 abt last yrs supplementary lessons as well as restu's novel plot.
Went in fr econs at 2.30, which i slept throughout before attending geog tutorial.
Geog was definately the more fun and lively lessons than the rest.
Took 119 with hanif to compass point and went to the library, popular and converse shop.
Nthg much so went home str8 away after tht by lrt.

Lastly, thursday was shitty too..
The first lesson was econs at 9 which was once agn tk perlu.
Went out of sch at 10 to get some breakfast at the esso nxt to our sch with aleem.
Then had malay frm 10.30 all the way till 12.30..
Wasnt expecting much bt hey i think thts the most fun tutorial since its in a classroom and got to meet and talk with our fellow malay classmates after so long..
Woah long time nvr see rafiqah, skali she's getting prettier alrdy.
HAHA.. & i like her bag. thts all..
Tim was as usual slacking..
Bla3 only hanif presented his work fr the full 2hrs..
Oh sucha waste of time bt quite lively class i guess..
Maybe its becoz ive did my work and read up on restu alrdy then i get to hayati it alrdy..
Spposed to go kovan kfc fr lunch with tim hanif vanan vel aleem.
Bt oh well miscommunications and ended up lepak-ing at the playgrd outside sch with aleem and his weird loser frens..
Dame awkward with those buggers ard.
LIKE WHATEVER-.-
Cant be bothered to talk to any of them, like malas nak layan.
Nak cakap apa cakap ah.
Korg jgn nk step ah eh!
Srjc ppl really sux big time-.-
FK OFF.
Ok so yea just grabbed a waffle before going back in fr geog class at 1.30.
Ended sch at 2.30 then went to meet omar and darius before disturbing those vietnam losers agn near the field and off to kovan as ever.
Met tim at the bustop b4 going to QIJI to eat nasi lemak set as lunch.
Bla3 went to play pool bt had to buy shirt first since sch uni nt allowed.
Played fr 2hrs frm 4 to 6 and off to home sweet home..

So yea so i am here now today finally updating my dead and boring non visited blog.
Off to friday prayers now and maybe pass by the sch fr awhile and see whether theres actually ppl visiting it or not.
HAHA! BYE.